Post by Tilde on Nov 17, 2019 11:53:03 GMT 10
Hi!
So, I'm not exactly certain that this is where you're supposed to post something like this, however, I really wanted to post this on here since it doesn't seem like I can talk about this with anyone else since I'm the only horse obsessed person I know. Well, I know two other ones but I don't think they really care for what I have to say, so I guess it doesn't matter.
Anyway.
Last year, September, my barn closed down. When I knew about it, I instantly started to cry. It was very emotional.
During my last year there, my anxiety took the best of me and I couldn't enjoy riding like I did after 3 consecutive falls. I loved horses still, I always will love horses more than anything. But riding lessons really weren't working out for me, because I was mortified to be on a horse. I was only able to truly enjoy riding when I rode my favourite mare, and since she was having a lot of behavioral issues, they wouldn't allow me to ride her. I was furious. She was such a good, patient mare that was overworked and that's why she had the issues that she had. All I wanted to do was to be allowed to work with her. I know that if somebody had dedicated even an hour out of their day to work with her, she'd be an exceptional horse. And even after a year, it hurts to think that nobody wanted to do that for her, just because maybe she wasn't pure breed or didn't have as much training as the other horses. It sucked.
It's been a year now. The only barn that I had around me sucked. I went to ride there, to test if I liked it or not, and I genuinely didn't. I'm not picky, but I hated that place. I don't know, they just didn't look like trust-worthy people.
So I'm left with no choice but not to ride anymore. And I hate it. The only thing that gave me genuine happinness is over. I wonder where the mare I talked about earlier is. If only I had the money...I would have bought her. Right away. But I'm poor. I don't have that type of money.
I know she'd have a happy home with me.
I'm posting this because I want to know if any of you is in the same position as me. I feel as if I'm the only person who can't ride horses, literally. Please, tell me if you're in the same situation.
So, I'm not exactly certain that this is where you're supposed to post something like this, however, I really wanted to post this on here since it doesn't seem like I can talk about this with anyone else since I'm the only horse obsessed person I know. Well, I know two other ones but I don't think they really care for what I have to say, so I guess it doesn't matter.
Anyway.
Last year, September, my barn closed down. When I knew about it, I instantly started to cry. It was very emotional.
During my last year there, my anxiety took the best of me and I couldn't enjoy riding like I did after 3 consecutive falls. I loved horses still, I always will love horses more than anything. But riding lessons really weren't working out for me, because I was mortified to be on a horse. I was only able to truly enjoy riding when I rode my favourite mare, and since she was having a lot of behavioral issues, they wouldn't allow me to ride her. I was furious. She was such a good, patient mare that was overworked and that's why she had the issues that she had. All I wanted to do was to be allowed to work with her. I know that if somebody had dedicated even an hour out of their day to work with her, she'd be an exceptional horse. And even after a year, it hurts to think that nobody wanted to do that for her, just because maybe she wasn't pure breed or didn't have as much training as the other horses. It sucked.
It's been a year now. The only barn that I had around me sucked. I went to ride there, to test if I liked it or not, and I genuinely didn't. I'm not picky, but I hated that place. I don't know, they just didn't look like trust-worthy people.
So I'm left with no choice but not to ride anymore. And I hate it. The only thing that gave me genuine happinness is over. I wonder where the mare I talked about earlier is. If only I had the money...I would have bought her. Right away. But I'm poor. I don't have that type of money.
I know she'd have a happy home with me.
I'm posting this because I want to know if any of you is in the same position as me. I feel as if I'm the only person who can't ride horses, literally. Please, tell me if you're in the same situation.